Tunnel Vision Directions

                There have been times in my life of feeling certain & knowing absolutely of a particular step I wished to take. Of course with all feelings of being ready for one particular direction there will always be places of doubt, wondering if you are making the right choice, the knowledge & sadness that you are leaving certain things & people behind, etc. But internally I have felt strongly about certain directions in my life, I will describe a few of the big ones.

                I attended Community College for a year as a personal choice, with the intention that I would then apply for one particular University for my remaining 3 years of college. I felt at home on the campus of Philadelphia University & applied to only this school. It isn’t that I knew for sure that I would get in, this was just the place that I really wanted to go & if I did not get in I actually did not have a back-up plan (which is quite unlike me now, at least the person I’ve become that past 8 years). Luckily with my tunnel vision, & perhaps the determination & hope that I put out into the Universe, I did get accepted & enjoyed a great 3 ½ years of college there.

                Another big occurrence I became set on, was my move to Southern California. I bought my very first car myself (previous vehicles my Dad paid for, yes lucky me & Thanks Dad!) at the end of 2006 (& it’s always good to purchase a car at the end of the year!). I bought a Honda Element because I had pretty much figured that I would be moving across the country. Haha. When I think back on things I’ve done I realize I am such a funny girl. I quit my job in July of 2007… I went on my family’s vacation to Ocean City Maryland, I then went to Florida to compete (to hopefully get an agent) at AMTC (Actors, Models, Talent Competition (at the time, the title has now been changed to incorporate Christianity). I did acting competitions, I danced with a partner, I strutted down the runway in an outfit I made (I’m 5’2”, so, it was about the outfit) & made a lot of great friends along the way (though I actually only keep in touch with one). I didn’t get an agent or notoriety out of it, but it was a great experience. I then vacationed in FL for a week, since my Dad has a home there in Apollo Beach. Afterward I flew back to Maryland to then fly to Los Angeles for 2 weeks to visit my friend from college, look for a job, & see if I liked it enough to move there. My eggs were completely in this basket, I hadn’t been working for a month, & I had no back-up plan if I didn’t end up liking California. Once I got there I drove everywhere, dropping off my resume & trying to find work. It wasn’t working out but I did find out about a big career fair at the end of September, so a week into my visit I decided that I would fly home & then drive back, with my car packed, in time for the career fair & hope for the best! So long story short, I had no job secured but I went home, packed everything in two weeks, & drove across the country for the career fair. I just felt it was the right step for me. I was 24 & I didn’t see my life & career progressing in Maryland, I wanted warm weather & the opportunity to utilize my Bachelors Degree in Fashion Design.